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In 2013, some Body is asking, am meet my cousins Jowhar & Muhammad near to my Town. So first we have a nice chat, except for Jowhar who are not talk, and after a Few whiles am seeing Skin of right Arm on Jowhar is black with thick lines on the Arm Skin.
So am ask to Jowhar, What happened this?
He reply, This is a Vestige of Torture.
I reply, Torture, which kind of Torture this and why?
He answer, This is a Vestige of Jihad Torture.
I ask, Jihad Torture sorry am not understand this.
He reply, I show to you after.
So we together go to the room of Jowhar & Muhammad where he remove his Shirts and when I look at the Jowhar am Shock His body are full with Lines from Torture.
Am ask, What is this and how it is happen?
He reply, A few years back we join One of the prominent jihad group who is trains the Boys and childrens for Jihad and we take a training there. Here we face the Body Torture, the Mentality Torture, and the Sexuality torture, very High. So at firstly we Lives in a Mosque with many other Boys for listening different type of Quranic Ayaat and Hadith of P.B.U.H. and listening that there is a lot of HOOR (fairy) for you in the Paradise, and that Shahadat, to be killed on ALLAH, is GREAT PRIZE for you! So next day we are all into the Bus and going out on the hills.
I ask, But how is your family members allow you to do this Jihad?
He reply, No we just ran away from House. Our Family do not allow to take part in this. After a Travel, we reach where is jeeps are. So we leaves the Bus and sits onto the Jeeps. Jeep take us in a remote area where no One is there, and every Where just Mountains and hills and A house. When you enter this house, here is many beautifull Girls Welcome Us. When we look to the Girls they is very beautifull and all is wearing black. We very Happy to see these Girls. Then one person come and order us to sit in the Hall for Dinner because at night when we reach there.
Next day, all the girls serve us a nice Dinner and after Dinner she gives us a Tea. Then same person come in and order us go out. So go out and the girls also with us.
Then few persons come and deliver us a speech and say that girls first gives you A training and after that all of you goes to The Next Step of Training. After speech girls Orders us divides into groups.
Next Day morning after Morning Prayer we are all in the Ground and we see that the other corner of the Ground is farr for us and do not see the other corner of the wall.
One girls order us to All of you stand in a Line. So we in a Line. Then she order us to run in a line until we can not stop. So we are running a distant time untill some Body suddenly stop. One of the girls is Hit him with a Stick. Then She ask Stop! and order us to removes the shirts. So we removes.
One Boy demand for Water but she is ask, There is no water for you untill the end and after this you may drink .
Then She order us to Laid Down in the Ground. So we laid. Then One girl jump on us with Shoes that is soo pain full, the Shoes was hard and clawing on our Bodies. We shout a lot Release us! but No one is help and the clawing goes on a faraway time.
One boy who is angary all at once Slap the Girl, then all other girls come and they tight the Boy up with A Rope and cover the face and start to Beating soo hardly. The Boy is shouting but all the girls is continuing to beat.
We are all looking this but No one has a Courage to stop any Thing. The Boy is Shouting and call FOR HELP. He is wheeping and say Please forgive me but No One is Listen. He is help Less.
After so hard beating The boy was tight with Piller and Tither. Then One girl come and she beat this boy again on the face untill his face is Full with Blood. We all looking this and sheviring. He calling for Help again but we are all stand and just watch. Many girls is beating One by one soo hardly. Then after this One Girls who is holding the revolaver (Pistol) She is fire bullets on the Legs of the Boy. He is Shouting more loudly, then one girl un tight the Boy from piller and Tither and start beating to him again. Then she say, Look at her! If some One do not obey our order then we will give him a pain untill death and now you just sit there and watch how this death.
We sitting there Quietly and looking the Boy. He gush in High pain and every One are praying, ALLAH that release us from this place.
The Boy voice was getting slowly Down and after a few whiles he is silent with no locomotion, then this same soo beautifull girl come close and look up to his eyes and fire more bullets onto his face and tell us that he is died.
We all are wheeping after this, she order us go into the hall that are to Eat. We are hungary that night. She serve us a meal and after this tea and order us again to come to the Ground after Finish. But no one from us really Finish are still sheviring.
When we are in the Ground after Dinner a girl is standing there says, Here where you all come for Jihad. Jihad is a Good and easy way to enter in a Paradise . If you kill One jew then in a Paradise you get a 35 HOOR (fairy). And To day one of your Companion not with you he is here under my Feet because not able to enter into a paradise and now his body are just waste. If Next any of you do like this, we kill them too.
After few days we are down half the boys, Other half killed with these girls on torture. New team is come to train to The Next Step of Training and all of these is Foreigner. They start with beating us on electric Wire. One Boy do not bear this and he is died.
After this, they gives us just a One Time for eating. That Day our body are full with Blood and we just laid onto the floor.
Next day they Order us to Removes the full dress and prepare your Self for hard torture. There was a hot water pool and they jostle us into the water but the water was too Hot and also soo many wound on our body that is why we feel too much pain but no one try to comes out because if Some one is come out they kill him.
We face a lot of pain and torture and after heavy months we are all most no Boys Left. We see soo many boys for dying. One Day we standing in the hall and a person come out and say To Day Our Leader come to meet you and He is deliver a speech to Jihad and After this all of you tell us your last wish and then we go in fight Against the Enemy For Jihad! So To Day is your Rest day and to Night was a special night for you because Tonight you may enjoy with girls. We surprized. At night time girls came out wearing a beautifull dress we Shocked to see these girls that are the same who is giving us a training and they torture us. But tonight we do a Sex. We all Boys afraid but that night we looks first time towards the face of this girls All of girls is soo beautifull and first these girls behaviour like a maid of us. We enjoy all the night. And Morning we are in the Same hall and a Man come who was a Leader with a Black Coat and have a Grizzled. He say:
AS SALAM-O-ALIKUM All of you boys. I am a Leader and Arranger of this camp I know more than a HALF Boys are not here, these are Unlucky but all of you Very Lucky because now You are going for Jihad and for fight for Islam. My Dears Boys today you are standing here it is a very Good position for you. On Oneside you have a Courage for the Shahadat and on Otherside you will have a golden happiness. You may Died, but on Secondside you may Alive after death in the Paradise! Now you are soo strong and am very happy to tell you that am may Hugg you to death but am hope you will never come back until you wins. You may died but Jihad is Alive. Here islam is again A live after your Death. My beloved Sons, am know you face too much pain here and you are Lucky because this pain give you a New Life, the Life that is for ALLAH and for Islam! Now you may Go Hurry-up and Fight against the Enemy who are very weak and Short hearted but your training make you Strong and you are Soo Brave. I know you are ready I know you never run away. I know you are able to fight against the Enemy. We do not choose you but ALLAH choose you for this great Jihad! Now my Child you are able to use the weapons and Now you are soo powerfull I know you may gives Life but do not come back without full Fill the Task. There was a lot of people who helps you in this fighting. Now your body full with the remains of Wound and this is your MEDAL OF HONOUR. Now you may write your Last wish here and after full Fill last wish, we Go a head for Jihad. This is our First and Last meeting, Takecare.
After he is a Way. We write the last Wish to Go to the city where we buy a New dress to use on Final Day, so they are happy to listen. Than we Comes out from this building after serverile Months and sit again in the jeeps. After tall journey jeeps drop us near the Bus and we sit onto the Bus with many persons who look after us so that No One can make a Disabling. After this, Bus drop us into the market, One boy Know better to this area because he is Visit here many Times Before. So we all are in the Shop where we Buy a One piece of Cloth. And after this a Man tell to us Shoping is Over, now into the Bus for go Back. One Boy who are aware from this area try to Run away but Man have a pistol, he fire on the Boy and Bullet hit Boy on the Forehead and he thud onto the Road.
We Sits silently onto the Bus and when Bus leave the Market they Stop to the Bus and Tight us up with the seat of the Bus so that No one of us can runs. After more too far Journey the Bus again stops and they un tight us and tells Go In side the jeep One by one. So we full fill the order. This time there was Only One jeep and we are many Boys so we are sit into the jeep Smally. They never Tight us up In the jeep when big Men is standing there but we all is free here because Mountain are every Where and No one from us know the way any Where. Then when sees a road Muhammad and me jumps outside from the jeep and is run a Way. After serverile day we reach toward the city.
Jowhar sits while Muhammad put the shirts back up over the Vestige of torture skin of the Jowhar arm.
At night, Jowhar say, when asleep still are sheviring. If girls is tell to you to come a Way from here and Go to Jihad for me, do not listening. Is just terrorists. All Jihadi camps where gives training just for terror or personal interest, Nothing more. Parents even do not know where is my Son. They thinks One Day he come backs.
Hakim Haider is a (real) Muslim based in the Middle East.
